It's Drizzling, and

I'm still in Eastbourne, at the studio.

We've done another song, I have written two more, and I am feeling very, very detached from the world I am used to. The world of social whirlwinds and pretending I can live in the same timescale as my friends.

I have been in the studio and then in the pub, then back to the studio. Every so often I worry that while I am here everyone else is forgetting about me.

I feel isolated, but somehow fulfilled.

There is something that tells me "this is who you are, isolated and slightly lost" and, in a peculiar way, that comforts me.

Perhaps it's true.

Maybe I want that to be true.

I think I want isolation because it absolves me from feeling responsiblity towards anyone who preferred me when I was someone who had passion without direction, songs without the means for singing them.

Maybe I am too self-involved, maybe I am just about self-involved enough.

Who the fuck knows?

I don't know. I think I don't really want to know.